Sunday, December 30, 2007

Bittersweet

It's not my favorite kind chocolate chips. I'm a milk chocolate girl, all the way.

It's also not my favorite kind of news but, what are you gonna do? So the news today is bittersweet.

I'll start with the sweet. Baby "A" has a heartbeat. That is wonderful, exciting news that is cause for gratitude. Baby "A" measured 6 weeks, 4 days on Friday (the 28th). Yay! That means probably healthy baby. Now for the bitter. Baby "B" did not have an audible heartbeat. Baby "B"'s placenta is tucked directly behind Baby "A" so it is nearly impossible to get a visual of it at this stage but they're telling me that they should have heard a heartbeat. It is very unusual (not totally impossible) for one baby to have a heartbeat and not the other. So, in all likelihood, Baby "B" is not going to make it. I have another ultrasound next Friday just to be sure. I have two placentas which means twice the hormones, which means DOUBLE THE MORNING SICKNESS AND ACID REFLUX- but most likely, I will only have one baby. That is very sad. I am so grateful that Baby "A" has a chance but I still feel like I'm losing a baby. It's a very confusing emotion. Also, I'm scared to get excited about Baby "A" yet because for some reason, every woman who has gotten pregnant in my ward in the last two months has miscarried. (The last count was up to 6 women I think.) I'm avoiding drinking the tap water in case it's environmental but who knows.

Anyway, I appreciate all your prayers. Keep sending them my way. I'll try to post a little sooner next time. What with all the puking and laying around, I haven't felt like sitting at the computer.

4 comments:

Tiercy said...

Thanks for the update! I am sorry that I didn't have a chance to grab you at church today. And, I think it is right to have those ambivalent feelings. Afterall, you ARE losing a baby, and you ARE pregnant with another one. Don't let anyone tell you you shouldn't be sad. I will come and punch them in the nose for you!

Sharon/mom said...

I'm so sad about your little baby, hopefully they will find a heartbeat. Steves mother had twins where one lived and the other didn't. Like you said it would be wierd, gratitude but sadness at the same time. I'll hope for the best. I love you !

BossyMommy said...

Hey Amy,

Thanks for the update. I've been wondering about you and the babies. I'll keep prayin for ya!

Rebecca said...

Once again, I'm so sorry about the baby. I wanted to comment on this blog too because of the acid reflux. Okay. I have a lot of experience with that unfortunately. I recently discovered this year through a lot of research that honey can do wonders. For me, if I feel a little twinge and eat a spoonful of honey ASAP then I don't get it at all. If I can't get to honey for some reason really fast and the reflux gets full blown, I still eat the honey and the reflux goes away within about a half hour. Before my discovery I would have attacks that were as bad as labor pains for 4 hours. In my research it said that some people that have it really regularly take a spoon of honey every night before bed and then they don't ever get it. Also my research revealed that if you have regurgitation during your reflux (which I do) then it is really bad for your tooth enamel. I had the reflux really bad during my last pregnancy (before the honey discovery) and when I went to the dentist I had 10 cavities! Shocker. I had never had that many before. I was very confused. But after I found out about the reflux and tooth enamel, I understood. Also in my research, a lot of people benefit from apple cider vinegar--either a straight swig, or diluted in warm water, with the honey to make a tea. The vinegar doesn't help me very much, the honey is what has saved me. Just this morning, I took my prozac and iron without food, and just water. I don't know what I was thinking, because it happens every time. I took the girls to school. ON the way to school I started feeling it, and I knew I was in trouble. By the time I got home it was full blown, I started downing the honey and within a half hour I was fine. I vomitted and had tons of pain, but it was gone in a half hour! Such an improvement. Hope this helps. Call me if you have any questions. Love you. Pregnancy is the pits. The baby is the only good part.